Wednesday, April 6, 2011

I Just Want To Give-up

I hate writing posts when my feelings are still so raw but I have to write this while tears stream down my face and I am two seconds away from throwing my sneakers out the window.

I just came back from a run and it was so hard…I felt overheated, stressed, emotional, tired. and just like shit! I could barely keep up with the running and took more walking breaks than I should have. At one point, I yelled “WHY IS THIS SO HARD!”

I hate writing negative posts but I don’t want to be phony either and say that my training is going good all the time because that is not fair to other people who are doing it too and think they need to live up to some stupid standard. Running will never be easy for me but yet I love it so much…it makes me think clearly and no matter what, it is the one constant thing in my life. No matter what happens in my life, the roads wont ever turn their back on me…

I have some personal things going on in my life and I don’t know if that has something to do with today’s run or it could be my dumb allergies acting up or maybe because my left shin is acting up a little. I don’t want to make excuses for myself….

The numbers speak for themselves…this was my run on Monday

Week 4 Day 1

And this was today…

E10K W4 D2

Should I repeat week 4 again next week? Or first see how it goes on Friday before moving ahead???


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