Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I Have a Eating Disorder and Workout Wednesday

I struggled with writing this post because I hate showing my flaws but I have been dealing with this a lot recently and I need an outlet.
If you have been following my journey, you know that I was extremely overweight and one of the reasons is because I am a binge eater. I was doing really well with it but recently it has gotten out of control and it is effecting my life.
I find myself thinking about food ALL the time and succumbing to the urges. I get the fix and then feel like shit and have no motivation to do anything but lay on the couch and feel disgusted with myself.
I am tired of beating myself up and comparing myself to others. I am tired of not being happy for my friends when good things happen to them because I am too busy thinking “Why not me?”.

If I were one of my clients, I would tell them to call me when they felt weak and take it day by day so I need to take my own advice.

So here it is day 1 with no binge! I will count the days, hours, minutes, seconds until it gets easier.
I read somewhere that you need to find your “why” Why do I want to control my binging? Because I want to help other people!

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Here is today’s routine! It is all about Arms and Abs



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16 comments :

  1. Wow, I'm sure that was really hard for you to put out there. I hope this blog helps as an outlet and for accountability. But maybe you could also find someone, like a counselor or a sponsor (do they have those?) that could help you too. Still, very brave of you to admit this. Love ya girl!

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    1. Thank you for always being there for me love!!!! your friendship means the world to me!

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  2. Hey chick!!! That was really brave! We all struggle. Like you said, it's a journey and the important thing is that you recognize that you veered off the path and you have now corrected your way. <3

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    1. Thank you so much mama! I really was hesitant to write this since a lot of my clients read my blog but I need to be honest with them and myself. love you and miss you!

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    2. Truly awesome!!! Love and miss you too!

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  3. So brave of you to write this. You know I still struggle with this too so we should def. start texting each other when we get the urge. I know how awful it is after. Love you!

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    1. Thank you sweetie!!!! And yes we should! I am all about the buddy system..love you chickie and we need to meet up soon!

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  4. Very brave of you to write this... I could have written the same thing about myself. If you need support, you know you can always call/text me.. You have been there for me so many times... Need to pay it back!!!

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    1. Thank you so much honey! I was scared to write this since you guys all read it but I needed to let it out...thanks love!

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  5. I'm so proud of you girl. You are so brave... this is a huge way for you to heal. Much love.

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    1. thank you so much honey!!! step 1 =)

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  6. You are so brave for being able to be open with what you're going through. I used to be a binge eater.. a binge and purge girl. Such hard times... I think back to those times.. I would binge, and while my daughter was downstairs I would run upstairs and purge. I would be so mad at myself and so upset. I would feel like a failure. I just want you to know that it can and will get better, and I'm really sorry that you have to go through this. If you ever need someone to talk with, sometimes it's easier talking to those that aren't directly in your life feel free to email me anytime. kristi1521 at icloud dot com.

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    1. Hey!!!!!! thank you for sharing that with me and you are totally right, it is so much easier to speak to someone who is not directly connected to you =) sometimes it is easier to tell a stranger your problems

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    1. Thank you so much sweetie!!!!! I totally agree that talking to someone about it, really does help =). Oh what book????

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