As I sit here and write this post, I have come to realize that this month I've had a theme on my blog...facing your fears. This was not an intentional decision but I guess this month I have been kicking ass and taking names ha!
This Saturday we had a inversion workshop at YTT and for the most part, I feel okay with headstands, forearm stands, and tripod but I have a nemesis...handstands! A few years ago, I decided to practice practice practice and I finally conquered my fear. I continued to do them and I even it did a couple on the morning when I had to have surgery in my cervix (April of 2014) but then I slacked and the fear set in once again.
The longer that I went without doing them, the more fearful I became. The same thoughts began to creep in, "what if I fall, what if I dislocate my shoulder"...so many negative "what ifs"
Saturday was no different. Ironically Raj, our teacher for the day said that handstand was the easiest of the inversions and I think I rolled my eyes and then I grunted when she said it would be the first one that we would be practicing.
I set up my mat near the wall and was ready to go...but I failed. I tried again and I failed. I kicked my legs up but my fear made them fall fast to the ground. I looked around the room and called my friend Kimberly over to help me. She spotted me while I tried to kick my legs up the wall but I was too afraid to truly try. She reminded me that I am strong and that I could do this. Even when I told her that I was done, she refused to let me quit. Finally I was up!
The rest of the day was smooth sailing. I even fell once while doing tripod and it didn't break me; instead I laughed.
Take a leap and let fear take the backseat...