A few months ago; my teacher asked if I would sub for her, a couple of times during the summer. I was honored that she would take this chance on me, especially since she has been teaching at this particular location for many MANY years and the ladies absolutely adore her. Back in May, I went with her to her class to build a rapport with the ladies and one of her students approached me after and told me that she would follow her to any location.
Valerie, is an incredible teacher and I knew that I had big shoes to fill but I was up for the challenge. I have been teaching my own class for a few months and have been feeling more and more confident with each week that passed by.
After a week of preparing, I headed to the studio on Saturday morning feeling confident (but still humble). I made sure to wear my "Live Fearlessly" Momentum wrap since I was definitely stepping out of my comfort zone...
I started my flow and it was going pretty well and then it happened...one older lady started to roll up her mat...and another joined her...and another.
It threw me off but I kept going...I kept teaching from the heart but I could feel it closing up. One lady would smile at me every so often almost as if she was trying to say "you are doing great, don't let it bother you". I found comfort in her smile.
I am not going to lie...I took it personal. I know I am not supposed to but how could you NOT take it personal. I put love into this class. I taught from my heart. I created a beautiful playlist. I took two buses to get there each way. I brought my own speaker in case I couldn't connect to theirs (thank god that I did because I had to use it) and these ladies were blatantly rude to me.
After class, I called my teacher and let her know what happened "They are a tough crowd". She let me know that this was not the first time that they have done this to her subs (they did it the following day as well to another teacher) and every year she needs to have a "talk" with them.
I had already agreed to go back in September before this happened but a part of me doesn't want to. However, I AM. I will go back with an open heart and try again. The ladies that stay, are the ladies that I am meant to teach...
Taking chances can have a wonderful turnout or sometimes it can be shitty experience. You are allowed to be disappointed but you are NOT allowed to stop trying.
Don't allow them to break your spirit...