My Story...

My Story...

I have been struggling with PCOS (Polycystic ovarian syndrome) which is an endocrine disorder that affects approximately 5% of all women, the principal features are obesity, anovulation (resulting in irregular menstruation), and excessive amounts or effects of androgenic (masculinizing) hormones. The symptoms and severity of the syndrome vary greatly among women. While the causes are unknown, insulin resistance, diabetes, and obesity are all strongly correlated with PCOS.


I was put on Birth Control which I have been on ever since and was also put on Metformin but that really didn't do anything for me so I stopped taking it. Having PCOS has really destroyed my self-esteem; I have some problems with my body that is directly linked to this. I won’t get into the gritty details but it’s enough to drive me to tears.

When I was around 21 I met this guy and we moved in together pretty fast. We were together for about 4 years and I wish I could say it was perfect but we were both young and had our faults.. He was a big guy and I had the mentality "well if HE is big, I can be too". All we would do is EAT. I have so many memories of us lying in bed eating huge greasy subs and washing them down with pints of ice ream and chips, this was the norm for us. Before I knew it, I tipped the Scale at 220 lbs


In the 3rd year of our relationship, my ex suggested that we should move near the beach which I thought was a great idea but I hated the fact that I was far from my family. The rent was pretty steep but together we made it work. As I mentioned earlier my ex was a big guy and he was very unhappy in his own skin. He decided that he wanted to get Gastric Bypass Surgery and I supported him on his decision, in fact I am the one that found his surgeon etc. The morning of the surgery he was crying (tears of joy) but by the end of the day they turned into tears of grief. After hours in surgery, he woke up thinking that his surgery was a success but his doctor informed him that they were not able to perform it. They told him to lose 40 lbs and they would try again but this time with the Lap Band instead. I nursed him back to health and helped him lose the 40lbs and after a few months, the 2nd Surgery was a success. He started to lose weight in rapid speed and here I was still in the 200's. I decided to start working out and did Weight Watchers; I started to lose weight too but nowhere close to his pace.

After 3 months or so, things started to really change between us and we broke up and I went into a depression. I saw what all my antics were doing to my family and I recognized I had to stop but I knew I could not do it alone. The person that saved my life was my niece; I didn't want her growing up not knowing the best version of her aunt. In 8 months I dropped down to 138lbs. And after about a year, I was happy again...



Namaste...

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16 comments :

  1. wow...what a story mari...you are so incredible strong and beautiful and have come SUCH a long way

    so much respect for you

    xo

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  2. Wow girl! I've known your story for a while now but just to go back and read through it again, I am so amazed. You are a strong woman and you have overcome so much and for the right reasons! Love ya :)

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  3. Hey fellow yogi! I just came across your blog and WOW you are an amazing, strong woman! You've come a long way and you should be sooo proud. I admire you for that :)

    Also, I LOVE that namaste necklace on your most recent post! I would be screaming and jumping up and down like a 3 year old too.

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  5. wow that is an amazing and inspiring story....when i'm down on myself I often look for other people's stories for inspiration to get me going again....if you did it girl then I can too!! thanks : )!!

    btw. you are beautiful : )

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  6. Ummmm...I love you! You are so awesome..and will be my newest inspiration.

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  7. OMG Mari! I did NOT know all the details of this and just read through it all -- I am amazed by your strength and courage! I am SO glad that you have been able to make decisions for YOU and YOUR health, and I am genuinely impressed by your will to live. If you ever need to vent/chat, I'm here!

    xoxo
    Caronae

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  8. Incredible, Mari. Hats off to your determination to kick the past out. And you look fantastic, btw! I've been lurking around for the past couple of months and read all of your posts. My gosh, girl, you are so positive and full of energy. Keep it up! With regards to your latest post about Jill Michaels - you do have fans around (lurkers, I agree... but still) so don't let us down. I come to your blog for inspiration so keep doing the great job you always do...

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  9. What an inspiring story! How amazing you are for overcoming all that anger and depression and taking control of your life! I'm so happy to have gotten to know you over the past couple months. You are AMAZING!

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  10. awww this is a great story! You are amazing! I'm so happy I got the chance to meet you, and learn about you. I can't wait till we can both push each other to the next level!

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  11. Latina.com brought me here and I'm glad. Your story is truly inspiring. It strikes a nerve with me because I too struggle with PCOS but in addition to that I also have an underactive thyroid. It's incredibly frustrating because as much as I try to lose the weight, I can't.

    Your story gives me hope that one day I can truly be myself again.

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    1. Thank you so much, and I truly agree...it is very frustrating. I was curious, how did you hear about me on latina.com?

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  12. You were named one of their Top 10 Health & Fitness Bloggers.
    http://www.latina.com/lifestyle/health/latina-health-fitness-bloggers

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    1. Thank you so much for letting me know! I had no idea....I am so honored! I went out to celebrate =)

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  13. Just had a chance to read your story and although Ive been following your blog for a few months, today I've read more than usual and I love your message :)....thanks for being so open about your story. I feel that sometimes our "pain" can be a wake up call for others whom can relate one way or another. Is amazing to feel that we are never alone in the world :)

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    1. Hi honey! Thank you so much....it's hard to be so open at times and I second guess it but comments like this, make it worth it!

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